I have been busy with just every day life. Unexpected things happen and we delve into the dark abyss to gather strength, hope, faith, love, and to remember that there will always be challenges to face in life no matter how big or small. Last month, my husband noticed blood in my dogs urine, so after a long weekend wait, I took her in and she was treated for a urinary tract infection. That's minor and easy enough to treat. But, my deepest nightmare is that Scotties tend to have a genetic predispostion to bladder cancer. I know, because I have lost three wonderful Scotties to this disease already. After 10 days of antibiotics and still some microscopic blood, I told the vet it was time for an ultrasound. This was scheduled the next day and it was that day two weeks ago that my fears were validated. I was told, "oh you got it early-just 1 cm and easily treatable". I was hopeful that the location and size was a sure bet to beating this monster. But, the surgical specialist revealed that the tumor was much bigger and required extensive surgery, leaving her a bladder the size of a walnut. I was so devastated to put her through that. Then, she was to come home on Friday and I get a call that her renal panel is climbing and she is leaking urine into her belly. This required another operation-immediately. Well, it was touch and go but she is home now and wearing diapers till the leaking stops. The bladder will expand over the next few weeks and then I can pick up the tarps on the floor. This wasn't enough-mama said. My husband went in for a routine eye exam on Tuesday this week and was told he needed an emergency laser surgery for a tear in his retina. Come Wednesday, the specialist tells him he has two tears and a detached retina. Another emergency surgery, this time in the hospital. I appreciate so much the independence that good health allows and the hardships that it doesn't allow. I still have frames to drill holes in and make thread for bolts for a show this month and the work is due next week. Well, somehow we march on, doing what needs to be done, keeping faith that all will turn out for the best, and these days too shall pass. I want to post art, make art, breath and smell art, but right now, I am just treading the coals in the fire. I shall return, perhaps a bit stronger next time around, but forever changed by the experiences that life brings me.
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